I’ve been feeling very conflicted these past days. In case you didn’t know, schools in the Philippines end their year at this time. We start classes in June, and end in March. My quandary? Should I or should I not enrol Nikki in regular school already? Last schoolyear, he continued with his homeschooling. Yes, he learned a lot, and yes, he enjoyed the flexible schedule. But is what I’m giving him really enough? I want him to go out and not be shy. I want him to go to and from school independently so he’ll have more self-confidence. I want him to speak Tagalog without fear of ridicule or criticism. I want him to do things that regular kids experience when they go to school. I know… I want him to have the best of both worlds: the freedom to learn what he wants at his own pace when he’s homeschooling and to be a part of regular school activities (Linggo ng Wika, Nutrition Month, etc) when he’s in regular school. My question: How do I let him experience both worlds?
Currently, Nikki is already enrolled in with a school that allows homeschooling. He’ll be in 6th grade next year. How will he feel if at the end of the school year he won’t be on a stage, he won’t be receiving a medal or award? Will he hate me for that? Of course, he tells me now that he doesn’t mind those and that he enjoys his homeschooling lessons but do I trust him? Do i believe what he tells me? How will he feel years from now when he’s older and he doesn’t have a set of friends that he can truly call his own? Will he still think that homeschooling was the best option for him?
I just feel as though there are ropes pulling me in every direction. I consult with Nikki, of course, but when I see him with other kids, I see his shyness disappear and he laughs with them and chats them up and I see a totally new side to him. I think, if I put him in regular school, will this new fire die with loads of subject matter and routinary lessons? I just feel so helpless.
Since Nikki is already enrolled for the next schoolyear, he’ll surely be a student there and will be going the curriculum for the year. I just don’t know how to supplement that in other areas of his development.
Here are my (sort of) solutions:
1. Let Nikki try public school. I don’t mean any public school but preferably a good one where we won’t have to worry about safety and lack of interaction.
2. Enrol him in a nearby traditional school. This would be okay I suppose but we’d be spending again for tuition which I think will be pretty hard for us.
3. Enrol Nikki in other activities where he could meet other kids and experience other things that would not limit him to our homeschooling corners.
So far, this is all I’ve got. Still racking my brains on other options but I suppose my main drive is to simply get him out of the house more. So, I really hope I will have a moment of clarity one of these days and find the answer somewhere…